Every gambler knows
that the secret to survivin’
is knowin’ what to throw away
and knowin’ what to keep
‘Cause every hand’s a winner
and every hand’s a loser
and the best that you can hope for
is to die in your sleep
- Kenny Rogers, ‘The Gambler‘
I’ve been in survival mode a little bit lately.
Between trying to finish the school year strong and preparing for a cross-country move, the rest of life has felt extra busy but also extra significant. I’m exhausted, but I don’t want to miss out on anything because very soon I won’t live here anymore and then I won’t be able to do the things even if I’m feeling totally energized. I keep telling myself: “You can sleep when you’re dead.”
So when I found out I would miss my sister Amy’s birthday party while we were in the mountains last weekend, I was bummed. We haven’t been together to celebrate either of our birthdays for years, and I think we both thought this would be one of the first. She wasn’t mad, but it was one of the only things that I’ve actually had to miss because I can’t literally be in two places at once. Sometimes, if I could I would. Mental health be damned.
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